Ryan Carmelo Briones

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Always Make New Mistakes April 11, 2014

To the casual observer it would look like the moment when I got my first tattoo is when things changed for me. A tattoo that matches the name of this post. The truth is the temperature had been rising in small degrees for a while, I just didn’t realize I was a frog in a pot.

2013 was a year of great turmoil for me and for some of the people around me at the time. The truth is I screwed up a lot of things, personal and professional. I could blame people and things, but when it comes down to it, much of it was my fault. I’ve come to terms with that.

I am blessed enough to have some great people around me to make sure I didn’t stay down when I fell. People that inspired me. People that listened when I needed to talk. People that helped me up when I was down.

I ended up with a lot of time and encouragement to reflect on myself and how I had arrived at my current place in life. For instance, I always thought I was an introvert. Turns out, I just didn’t understand what that word means. I’m a super-shy extrovert. I learned that lesson the hard-way this year, though I have still not found the path to overcoming it.

More apropos to this blog post though, I decided something else as well. It seems likely that being a developer is not what I’m meant to do. I’ve struggled a lot in the past year (maybe two) to figure out what would make me in my career of choice and every time I’ve come up empty.

This is the career that I’ve dedicated most of my time the last 10 years of my life to. How I’ve spent my spare time. The things I’ve read. The people I’ve surrounded myself with. The places I’ve gone. All in service of my career in technology.

With that in mind, I put this out to the world a couple weeks ago:

That’s the horizon right now. I’ve got a couple ideas of what that might mean. I’m infatuated with craft food right now. Particularly coffee and cocktails. I’ve also had an increasing urge to find my way back to into music. Those are the front runners.

What does that look like in the short term? The truth is I have no idea. I know that where I am in life now and where I think I want to be are worlds apart.

The plan is to put myself in places to try a lot of new things. In the next year I want to take a least a 6-month sabbatical to do something completely non-tech. That will have a strong impact on what I do in the extreme short term.

If you’d like to talk with me about any of this, email me at ryan.briones@brionesandco.com. I’m always looking for inspiration and feedback.

Until then, it’s time to go make some new mistakes.